'After the Interview: The Struggle Was Real"

OK! So now that the initial excitement of receiving the offer had worn off, it was time to get to work with making some important decisions. I struggled the longest on finalizing whether or not I was going to actually go through with moving forward with the process of turning in what I needed to complete my profile for hire. My first priority was of course my one and only daughter (no spouse or other dependents to consider so this should have not been that hard right? Wrong!). So many questions gave me pause to this life changing opportunity: me as a ponder my thoughts...
1)If I take her with me, where would she go to school?
2) How much would schooling cost? 
3) Is home school an option? (Didn't know ANY information on it)
4) Who would watch her during orientation? 
And these were just my "What is she goes with me" thoughts! If my daughter stayed, I had to really consider who would raise her in my absence and how would our separation both effect us? 

  I went back and forth with what I thought would be best for her until I thought the decision was made for me through confirmation of troubling news about my daughter's health. She was diagnosed with "Acanthosis Nigricans" (a precursor to diabetes that was determined due to a dark ring around her neck caused by high levels of insulin). I knew it was caused by all the bread, pasta, and junk food my baby and I love to indulge in. I immediately thought "This is not the time be think about going overseas when my child's health is at risk. I've got to get us HEALTHY!" I felt this was a sign from above to stay, even after my conversations with various loved ones I received about my new job opportunity over my Christmas break; I went home after Thanksgiving with what I thought would be awesome news that I could be happy with my family and friends with about over the holidays, but instead. I was met with much curiosity, questions, and fear. Many jokes plus much anxiety from those that were indeed selfish with their thinking, yet many encouraging words and prayers from those who felt this was a once in a lifetime opportunity. 

 Long Story short, I had a lot going on through my mind that distracted my focus of truly following my dreams and accepting this position wholeheartedly. The stress of it all led to a halt in my document collection for 3 months. But that all soon changed.....