" It's not goodbye, but see you later"

"It's time to say goodbye, but I think goodbyes are sad and I'd much rather say hello. Hello to a new adventure. "  Ernie Harwell

I was sleeping in bed waking up to the day of THE most important Falcons game of the season. My nerves up to this point had truly gotten he best of me. I emailed the school secretary each week after my documents were sent in to get an update on where I stood for being approved with the Ministry of English in the UAE and still no word. I decided to stop stressing and pressing the issue and have faith that what was meant to be would be. Once I let go of my fears and worries  and let God handle the situation, it was then that I finally heard back from my new school about my approval. Something told me to check my email and sure enough when I did, I received word that things were a go and that they were ready to book my flight to the UAE. I sat there with my head on the pillow simply taking it all in with a smile. I felt God whisper in my ear "I told you not to worry". Everything was officially OFFICIAL.

I emailed the school secretary to inform her that I would be ready within one week; this gave me time tie up lose ends and say my final goodbyes .

My daughter's birthday was around the time I was due to depart, so this made it even harder for me. However, I am glad I was able to be with her on her birthday because it made it that much more special and memorable for both her and I. I definitely had some obstacles and unforeseen stress triggers throughout that day and this of course led to a trickling effect of negative vibes. I was battling a force of confusion and hostility as I wonder if I truly was making the right decision with going away and leaving her in the states. But I knew deep down that I was making the right and best choice for our lives and that the time we spent apart would be well worth it; the plan was to get myself together in all avenues of my life, so that I could give my daughter something that most people only dream about. It was time to get out of my own head and away from the negativity. 

I took one last selfie with my pookie poo, kissed and hugged her goodbye, and left my daughter in her granny's drive way. I was game for her seeing me off at the airport but she was unable to make it; looking back on it now, it was for the best because I probably would have been an emotional wreck.

That evening, I partied one last time with my friends; seems to be like a tradition now actually because when I left for Houston, we did the exact same thing. Man, what good times. My bestie cooked my favorite buffalo chicken dip, I brought the chicken wings, the girls brought the spirits, the boo brought the charm, and the laughter and conversation was the seasoning to a chilled but fun and memorable night. My family and friends truly keep me grounded. They inspire me just as much as I inspire them. It is good to keep a circle around you that motivates and encourages you while wanting to see each other win. I am a true believer that people cross your path for a reason be it for a season or a lifetime. I've gained and I've loss, but all the people in my life be it past or present helped to shape me into the woman that I am today. Saying goodbye is like declaring an ending; It definitely wasn't a goodbye to certain few, but in fact, a see you later...